Thursday, December 9, 2010

Randomness from 35,000 Feet in the Air

Gotta love free wi-fi on an airplane! I am currently on a plane on my way to San Fransico! Mr. Sully has been at a work conference there all week, so I am flying to meet up with him for the weekend! Yes, I am flying cross country for all of 2 days. Tomorrow we plan on heading up to Wine Country to visit some vineyards, which is something I have always wanted to do. Saturday we will probably do some wicked touristy things, then back to Boston on Sunday. So, as I sit here on my 6 1/2 hour flight, here are some thoughts on my weight loss progress, how things have changed, and the holidays....


WEIGHT LOSS

My weight loss is at 106 lbs lost! I go through plateaus where I won't lose for a week or 2, and then I will lose a few lbs, and then plateau again. I am not really bothered by it, because I know the scale will move again in the right direction. When people ask, and I tell them, how much weight I've lost, it is now usually followed with "how much more do you want to lose". I have no answer to that. I have decided, and I know, most Dr.'s won't agree, not to give myself a goal. I refuse to fixate on a number. I have spent my entire life fixating on a size, a weight, how many pounds to lose, etc. I have given that all up. My goals are to be healthy, happy, and to hopefully be able to get pregnant. I will know when I get to where I want to be. Some people say without a goal (as in goal weight) that it will not motivate you. What motivates me is the scale going down. Here is an example of how my perception has changed: Before if I started a diet, got on the scale and lost between 1 and 3 pounds, I saw it as failure. It wasnt enough. Now, even after 106 lbs, I still get excited about losing 1 pound, because I know another pound is sure to follow, and another after that, and so forth. It's not a race; it's coming off, and thats all that matters to me.

With losing this amount of weight, and my body forever changing, I, an admitted shopaholic (since long before surgery!) now find myself COMPLETELY OVERWHELMED when I go into the stores. For the very first time in my adult life, I no longer have to shop in a plus size store or section. I always knew what store, or corner of the store I needed to go in. Now that the rest of the store is opened up to me, I find it to be a very daunting task to shop. Scary, and overwhelming. I dont like unfamiliar territory, and yet that is where I find myself. I am slowly getting used to it, and yet strangely enough I will walk by the plus size section and miss the comfort I felt knowing exactly where everything was, how it fit, etc. I know it sounds crazy, and it is something no one ever told me, and nothing I have read about, so hopefully someone reads this that is going through the same thing, and feels a little better that they are not the only one that feels this way.

THE HOLIDAYS

Today is December 9th, and I am really so sick of listening to people complain...complain about Christmas, complain about the cold, complain about Christnmas music being played so early blah blah blah! ENOUGH! Try stopping complaining, and try to ENJOY the season! Remember the feeling you had as a kid that usually started at Thanksgiving? It was a whole season of excitement...making out a Christmas list, putting up decorations, getting the tree, listening to Christmas music and Christmas specials. I loved Christmas Eve! We would always get new pajamas, and could open up 1 gift. I couldnt wait until it was time to go to bed, only to not be able to all asleep. And then finally, Christmas morning! So maybe now we are not waiting for Santa, but I still love the Christmas season. I still love to decorate the house and the tree, I still get excited when Rudolph is on, and of course, have to watch A Christmas Story any time it is on. I love listening to Christmas music, the hustle and bustle in the stores, and riding around looking at Christmas lights. My favorite is Christmas Eve, as I play host to both my family as well as my husbands. I love starting and carrying on traditions. As adults, we have a lot more responsibilities and a lot less time. Maybe during this time of year we should just try to slow down a bit here and there? As adults, when we get overwhelmed with the "grown up stuff" I think most of us at one time or another have said something along the lines of "I wish I was a kid again" Well, we can't go back in time and be a kid again, but maybe if we CHOOSE to try and enjoy the season a little more, look at some lights, listen to some music, watch a Christmas special from your childhood, maybe you can get back that "feeling" we had as kids.

Just a thought.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

OK So It's Been a While!

WOW! It has been MONTHS since I have updated my blog! The Sully's have had a really busy summer and fall...lots of fun, but very busy! We have had lots of weekend trips, to Cape Cod, Foxwoods, and Maine. I went on a girls weekend to to Foxboro. Doesnt sound very exciting, but it included a Bon Jovi and Kid Rock concert and a day of shopping at the Wrentham Outlets! In October we celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary at Sandals, Montego Bay in Jamaica. We went there last year, and could not wait to go back, we had such a great time! When we came back, we went to the annual Pumpkin Festival in Keene, NH. That weekend was followed by my sister in laws bachelorette party, and then her wedding...told you we were busy! I really think Mr. Sully and I have had maybe 2 weekends to ourselves (at home!) since the summer! Here are some pics from our adventures....


Mr. and Mrs. Sully at Mohegan Sun


my view every day on the beach in Jamaica





Mr. and Mrs. Sully went ziplining!

Friday, June 25, 2010

I'm Getting OLD!

Totally forgot I blogged about thinning hair and cutting it short LOL oh well, more pics anyways :)
One of the first things they tell you is a side effect of weight loss surgery is hair loss. That has really been my only fear. Not dying, not being sick, but hair loss. Before surgery, I had long, thick, curly hair. In 35 years, I have never appreciated my hair-until now. It has thinned out some, most people cannot notice it, but I could. I hated how it felt, the clumps of hair every time I touched it, washing it, you name it. So, I decided to cut it. It has definitely helped make it less noticeable and feels so much better. I will prob keep it short for a while until the hair stops falling out, which I think stops around the year mark. So, while snapping pics of my new short 'do, I also took some "after" shots. So, here is what my new hair and 72lbs gone is looking like:





Hmmm...must do something about those arms!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

To Eat or Not to Eat (or what do I eat) That is the Question!

Prior to me having GB surgery, most of my blogs were about food. What I was eating, what I was making, and so forth. I loved food, I still love food. I didn't know what to expect after surgery as to what my relationship with food would be like. Would I still be able to eat this or that ever again? Will I have to live on shakes? Yes, yes, and no. I can eat basically whatever I want, it's just now I make better choices for myself. GB is not magic...I now and for the rest of my life will have to watch what I eat. I know what I should eat and I do pretty well at eating right. I occasionaly treat myself. I never feel like I am denying myself anything. If I want something, I have it, but in a small portion and that takes care of my craving. When we go out to eat, I order everything, and finish nothing. Or sometimes I will split a meal with Mr. Sully. So, with all this, it brings new challenges: What are new, healthy ideas I can cook for breakfast, lunch and dinner and how can I modify existing recipes. Going forward, I will try to share some more of these ideas. Todays idea? LUNCH! I bring breakfast and lunch to work everyday, so here is what I have been doing.

Breakfast: I usually keep Quakers Weight Control instant oatmeal in my desk (variety pack) and eat that for breakfast. Occasionally I will bring a yogurt, or cottage cheese, or cereal (Special K) instead.

Lunch: Tuna, ham and cheese, turkey and cheese wrap. I bought a great lunchbox and is awsome in helping with portion sizing.



It is called a "laptop lunch". Basically, it's a bento box with perfectly sized containers. Use them all at once, or just some of them. Here is one of my favorite lunches that I have been bringing to work this week.




(from the top left) Falafel, cut up peppers and grape tomatoes, cantaloupe, and Sabra Hummus.

Falafel-I bought these premade at Costco, as I have no idea how to make them. LOVE THEM! I also bought a package of these mini sweet red, yellow, and orange peppers. Also from Costco, I purchased single servings of Sabra hummus (which is my new fav!)

So here is what I will bring with me to work tomorrow....



In addition to my falafel, veggies, fruit and hummus, I am bringing Special K with Yogurt, and water. Not pictured is my ice tea (unsweetened) that I bring every day (16oz). My water jug is 32 oz. My goal is to finish my ice tea and the water and that would give me 48oz before I got home from work. Going out somewhere with my sister in law for dinner tomorrow night, so we will see what that brings for food! Good night for now!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Mrs. Sully's new 'Do

Mrs.Sully got a new haircut. Major haircut, like my hairdresser asking me twelve thousand times if I'm sure I want to do this. Why so drastic you ask? Well, since I have breezed through this whole gastric bypass experience so well, there was bound to be at least one bump in the road. My bump in the road=hair loss. I knew to expect some. I wasn't thrilled about it, but I knew it could happen. I was told to start to expect it around months 2-3. Yea right. My head has been hemorrhaging hair like the BP oil well is hemorrhaging oil since day 5. I am very, very, very lucky to have started out with a full, thick head of hair. A head of hair I never really appreciated until now. What started out as nice and thick and full, is now thin, not so thick, and noticeable. Anytime my hands touch my hair, I got clumps. Listen, I'm a girl, I've had long hair, I know hair come out, and sticks in the tub, and all that good stuff. I'm not talking about that. I am talking every time you shampoo, condition, rinse, comb, blow dry, put hair up, take hair down, run hands through hair, clumps every single time. My hairline looks like it's receding. When I feel my hair, I can feel how thin it is. Regular claw clips I used to have to by the huge ones, because that is all that would hold my hair. Now, I can put all my hair up with one of the really small ones :(

Here is what my hair used to look like



I don't really have any pics that show exactly how thinned out my hair got. I rarely wore it down, and when I did, I would wear a headband so you could not see how thin it was. I decided to cut it, and start over. I'm hopeful my hair will eventually grow back! Here is how it looks now. Unfortunately, it was pouring when I left, so it doesn't look quite as good as it first did, but you get the idea!





Seriously, these are not great pics. My hairdresser is awesome, and these pics really don't show what a great job she did. What you can't see in the pics is how healthy and shiny my hair looks and feels, and how much more volume it has, it actually feels thick again! I will post more pics on a better hair day lol. So would I have the surgery again knowing exactly what would happen to my hair? Absolutely. I have lost 67 pounds in 4 months, and still losing. This is just my vent. I have been very lucky, I have had no issues, (knock on wood) and I can eat just about anything I want. Oh well, that's all for now.

Weekend in Maine

Last weekend, Mr.Sully and I were able to get away for the weekend! We left on Friday after work, and headed up to Ogunquit,Maine and stayed at the Juniper Hill Inn. I love it up there, perfect place to spend the weekend. There is lots of cute shops and restaurants, and I love going to Perkins Cove. Since we got there later in the evening on Friday, we were looking for a place for dinner. As it is not yet peak season, a lot of places still close early (in my opinion) at 9:00. This is what we found...



We LOVED this place! We hung out at the bar, and ordered, what else! Tinis-super dirty Belvedere for me, wine for Mr.Sully and Tapas-spanish meatballs, chicken wings, and this crostini with red pepper puree that I am still craving! Very fun atmosphere, and super friendly bartender. Oh and the food was SO GOOD! The weather for the weekend was not very cooperative. In fact, all of New England was under a tornado warning for the whole weekend, how crazy is that! At around 7:00 am I was woken up my a monstrous thunder storm. It was raining, so no pool or beach for us. At least not outdoors. The Juniper Hill Inn has a really nice indoor pool and hot tub, so we hung out there. There were a couple of families there when we first got there, then they left so it was just the hubby and I. Very relaxing. Nice to go for a swim, relax in the hot tub, and just hang out and read. I am currently reading "Eat, Pray, Love", will blog about that in another post when I finish, but love it so far. After spending some time at the pool, we headed back to the room to shower and change to go our for lunch. By now it was nice and sunny...where should be go? Back to Tapas and Tinis for happy hour! We got a pitcher of mojitos



I got a super berry flavor shot for my mojito and it was quite delicious!



We sat out on the porch and was able to people watch, one of my very favorite pastimes lol....Of course we had some more tapas as well, including the aforementioned crostini. Our friends came up on Saturday, and we went to Barnacle Billy's in Perkins Cove for dinner-lobster of course! After a lovely dinner there, we decided to go out for a couple more drinks...where would we go? Of course! Back to Tapas and Tinis!!! We had some more drinks there (no tapas) and just hung out. Hmmm....3 visits in 24 hours...I think we liked it! The next day we drove up to Kennebunkport and went to Alissons for lunch and then lots of shopping. We headed back to Ogunquit for of course, more shopping, and then to Wells to go to The Steakhouse for dinner. If you have not been to The Steakhouse in Wells, GO! It is sooooooooo good! I have been dying for a steak. I have not had a really really good steak since before surgery. Mr.Sully and I split a ribeye (my fav cut) and it was delish! Cooked perfectly, still nice and juicy, it was just what I wanted. And, the best part was, I was able to tolerate it! I was so afraid I would not be able to tolerate it, but I had no problems! We headed home after dinner. It was a fun weekend with good friends that went by way too fast, can't wait to do it again!

Mr.Sully and I at Alisson's



Fun Fact: Mr.Sully and I have been going to Alisson's for years and love it! When we were there last weekend, we found out they are going to be on "Food Wars" on the Travel Channel! I am trying to talk Mr.Sully into going up while they are filming. I believe it is 6/24 and 6/25. My dates may be a day off, but it is definately that Saturday and Sunday. If you're in that area, go check them out!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Before and After Pics-FINALLY!!!

I have finally decided to put up before and after pictures. I always knew at some point I would post them, what I did not count on was how hard it would be to go back and look at some of these pics. I know I have lost 60lbs so far, and my clothes are smaller, but I could not see that much difference. Until I pulled these pictures. So for anyone reading that may be curious, here is what 60lbs gone looks like so far...

Sandals, Montego Bay Jamaica for me and hubbys first anniversary...amazing, I didnt think I looked that bad in this pic until about 10 minutes ago.




Out with friends this past winter at the Venetian Moon



Me doing my usual, enjoying a glass of wine :)



OK, so that's what I used to look like, now here is a couple of my most recent pictures...
ps-pay no attention to the very "gastric bypass unfriendly" activity LOL-explanation after pics!



We went to MGM Foxwoods for my birthday, and Duff from Ace of Cakes made my birthday cake! Well not really, BUT, he was there as part of MGM Foxwoods Second Anniversary Bash and did the cake for them. Here, see for yourself!...


And yes, we got his autograph ;)




I will post more pics as I get them!

BAD BLOGGER!

Ok, so I have been a bad blogger! Have not blogged in about a month or so, but so much as been going on, all good though :) First of all, I got a job-YAY! After being unemployed since December 2008, I have finally rejoined the work force. I am doing syndication for a real estate investment trust company and it is going very well. It is full time, and they let me work part time until I finished my spring semester classes, which I finished a couple weeks ago. B's for the semester! Going forward I will take my classes at night and online. Second, I am down 60lbs! I can't believe it. My new work clothes are all too big for me, so *sigh*, must go shopping again lol...will post pics in another post. I feel great, and can pretty much tolerate any food, as long as its not too dry or doughy (like a thicker crust pizza). I am looking forward to the summer, being outside, and DOING things outside. It was a beautiful weekend, and spent the night out on the waterfront, by the Aquarium and Boston Harbor Hotel. I love that part of Boston, probably my favorite area. We didnt really go anywhere, just hung out and had some drinks, but one of my favorite things to do was to start at the Boston Harbor Hotel and have drinks on the patio, and then walk along the waterfront, past the Aquarium and Long Wharf Marriott, and walk to the North End. As much as I love it, for a while I dreaded being out doing that walk, now I can't wait to go again! Today I think I am going to go pick up a couple of tennis raquets so hubby and I can play! Have a good weekend!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Busy Bee!!!

Wow I am a little late on updating my blog! Been busy with school, and getting ready for Easter. I am cooking for my family, so lots to do. Clean, cook, shop, cook some more...the usual! Here is what my menu consists of for Easter dinner:

Deviled Eggs
Easter Bread
Anise

Ham
Mashed Potatoes
Butternut Squash
Asparagus
Carrots

Raviolis
Meatballs, Sausages, Bracciole
Eggplant Parm

Yea, I know...not very GB friendly! I wont eat everything...I will have a piece of ham, maybe a ravioli, and I have to have my fave-eggplant! I have yet to think of a dessert...my family is bringing italian pastries, but those I won't be able to touch. Maybe some fresh fruit, or some No Pudge Brownies. Have you tried those? If you haven't, you must....fat free brownies and are sooooooooo good!

So besides Easter, I got a job! Well, I accepted the job offer, and I start on Wednesday. For anyone reading this that doesn't know, I have been out of work since December 2008.

As far as my weight loss goes, down 4 lbs last week for a grand total of 42lbs! It's been a bit slow, I went out Sunday for my Dad's birthday, and ate really bad!! Oh well, just get back on track, at least as much as I can with Easter!!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Happy Monday!

Although it is gray and blah and rainy today, it was a beautiful weekend for the start of spring! Saturday was 72 degrees, and Hubby and I went into Boston for the day. First stop was Barmakian Jewelers. He has been doing Weight Watchers and has lost about 20 lbs. Well, because of his weight loss, his wedding band was literally falling off his hand. I've lost almost 40 lbs and my rings are no where close to need resizing...WTF??? My fingers are like breakfast sausage links. My ring finger is a 9.5...even when I was thin my finger was only an 8.5...again, WTF??? Oh well, I did some "wish list shopping" while I was there. So, here is what made my wish list:

Diamond Bangles (I heart bangle bracelets!) The second one is my fave



Emerald Ring (Emerald is my birthstone)


And my favorite, diamond earrings that match my wedding rings :)



Maybe I will get something, maybe I won't, we shall see! But, if anyone is jewelry shopping, I highly recommend Barmakian, they are awesome! They cleaned and buffed my rings, and fitted Hubby's wedding band while we waited. And you can't get better service. We still see the same salesman who originally sold Hubby my engagement ring 3 years ago, and still knows us by name when we come in.

After Barmakian, we went to Brasserie Jo for lunch. We love it there, and have not been in a while. It is in the Commonwealth Hotel on Comm Ave, and we were able to get a window seat, which is great for people watching. Later in the spring and summer they have outdoor seating, which is nice. We got a half shellfish tower, and some french onion soup. Surprisingly, for a port city, Boston does not have that many restaurants that are by the water, or that have outdoor seating. After a nice lunch, we went down Newbury Street, and could not believe how many people were out! It was nice to be able to get out and enjoy the weather.

It is nice to be able to go out and eat. Of course, I have good days and bad days. Friday and Saturday were really good days. Did great out to eat, but Sunday and today, eating is just not working for me. Oh well. I did lose 3 lbs though, for a total weight loss of 38 lbs. I should be at 40lbs by Wednesday. 3 lbs a week seems to be the average weight loss for me. It's a little slower than I anticipated, but it is steady, and steady works for me! More to come next week!!

Monday, March 15, 2010

So I Did a Little Shopping!

Ok first things first....weekly weigh in, down another pound, so total weight loss to date is 35 lbs. It's kind of strange the way I am losing weight. Meaning, 35 lbs ago, I did not look the way I do now, and things did not fit the way they do now. I'm not complaining, just an observation. Another observation: Things don't taste the same. For example, I LOVED coffee....Dunkins coffee, espresso, even coffee from my Keurig that I love oh so much. Now, I really don't like it. Maybe it's because I used to drink it "regular", 2 sugars and cream. Now I use Splenda, (which I have used for quite some time, just not in coffee) and I have sugar free flavored CoffeeMate. Nope, not working for me. Olives, I also love. I usually will get a mixed container of Kalamata, Gaeta and Sicilian olives. Kalamatas, too strong for me, so I stick to the milder tasting Sicilian olive. Parmesan cheese. I use grated Romano usually, but sometimes I like melted Parmesan on stuff. Nope. Turns my stomach. I have read that after gastric bypass surgery sometimes your taste buds change, and that sometimes you don't like things that you used to. Also, since I quit smoking, I don't know if that contributes to it in any way. Oh well, at least it's stuff that really isn't bothering me. Instead of drinking coffee, I drink tea.
So I went shopping today. Really, I didn't want to. I have had 2 pairs of jeans that I have been wearing for like 3-4 years. They are definately getting too big, but both, not just one, finally had enough and starting to rip from wear, and not in a good way, like on the inner thigh part. So, I needed new jeans. I did pull out a pair of jeans from a few years ago that have not fit, and today went on quite easily. Also, I had a very cute raincoat that has not been able to fit, and I wore it easily today. Back to shopping. I just went to The Avenue for jeans. They were having a sale, and I did not want to pay a lot of money since I won't be wearing them all that long before I need new ones. I got 2 pair, in a size 20! I never thought I would be happy to wear a size 20, but since I was wearing a size 26 5 weeks ago, I am quite happy with that!
Shoes. I love shoes. If you have ever been overweight and could not wear the types of clothes you wanted to, shoes and accesories are where you made up for it. Especially the shoes for me. High heels, sexy heels, cute heels, skinny, thick, wedge, chunk, you name it I loved it all. And when my feet could not support the weight in heels, and the weight I had gained had changed the way I walk, I had to give them up for flats. That was pretty devestating. I recently saw a really cute pair of sandals, that had a pretty high heel, and I ordered them, hoping I would be able to wear them this summer



I LOVE them and guess what? I CAN WALK IN THEM! I know for most people, it's not a big deal, but it is to me! My shoes are back!!! So, I went and bought another pair,

By the way, the first pair is Nine West "Fushia" and the second pair is Jessica Simpson "Astor". I can't wait to wear them! Sorry for such a long post!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Dr. Visit and Weigh In

Alright, so I am a little late this week with my updating, but I've been sick. Sick since Sunday, and not really feeling much better. I have a really really really bad cold, and I am so congested I can't breathe. I have no energy to do anything. It's been really beautiful out, and I really have not been able to get out and enjoy it. Enough of me whining. Had a Dr. appt yesterday with my surgeon. I am down 34 lbs, and everything is going well. My incision is healing nicely, and the dr. is pretty pleased. I don't have to go back to him until May, which means that April will be my first doctor free month in a year! He still does not want me to do any heavy lifting, so no lifting at the gym. I recently went back and was just doing some cardio, and was hoping to be able to get back to circuit training, but I can't do the lifting. I guess I will meet with the trainer again to find some sort of workout I can do besides cardio. Any ideas anyone?

Monday, March 1, 2010

1 Month Post Op!

Almost...tomorrow will officially be 1 month since I had gastric bypass surgery. I cannot believe how quickly it has gone by! 1 month down and 30 lbs gone! Let's talk about what has changed in the last month....

1. I lost 30 lbs. I don't think I have been able to say that in years and years and years!

2. My clothes fit better. People ask me how many sizes I have dropped. I did not drop any sizes yet, just the clothes I have been wearing actually fit me now instead of being too tight, as I was too embarrased to buy the correct size in clothing that I needed.

3. My jewelry fits! How often do you hear that? Probably not too often. My Tiffany necklace now fits me again, my bracelets fit around my wrists again, and my wedding rings are starting to get loose.

4. I am back to caring about how I look. Maybe that's the wrong term...I always cared about how I looked, but kind of gave up on it for a while because it seemed like there was nothing I could do to make myself look better. I am back to wearing make up everyday, doing my hair, getting my hair done, and I love it.

5. I want to go out! I no longer want to hide inside the house so that the rest of the world can't see me. I want to go out, I want to do things, I want to have fun! We just planned my birthday party at Shrine at the MGM Foxwoods. I would never have done that before. A month ago, if someone invited me there I would have cringed and found any excuse not to go, now I can't wait to go!

6. I'm happy.

Most people take for granted these kinds of things. When your extremely overweight, these are things that are always on your mind, and when something happens like your bracelet fits, or you have again found enjoyment in putting on makeup, it's a really big deal. And it's only been a month and 30 lbs. I can't wait to see what the next few months bring!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Another Week, Another Weigh In

So last weekend the hubby and I had a date night-dinner and a movie. This is my first time going out to eat post op. We went out for sushi, one of my faves, and figured I had a lot more options to choose from there. I had some edamame, miso soup, sashimi, and salmon and avocado maki. It sounds like a lot, but was really just a little of each. It was good to get out. We went to go see Shutter Island after dinner. On opening night. Can you say busy and sold out! We went to see the 10:25 show, we were there am hour early and still had to wait in line even after we had our tickets. I didn't love it. It was ok, a little long and drawn out in my opinion. I think I will get the book and see how that is. So on to more important things-my weight loss :) I am down 5 lbs this week, for a total of 27 pounds lost. I also met with my nutritionist this week, and she gave me the go ahead to try many new foods. Soooooo, I made some pork tenderloin for dinner that night. NOT A GOOD IDEA!!! I think it was too dense, because I didn't take big bites, I chewed pretty well, and it just did not want to go down. I had some no sugar added applesauce to moisten it, but it still did not do the job. So, up it came. I guess we will try that again at a later date lol. Tonight I am making mexican turkey burgers, let's see how those work out! Be back next week with another update :)

Monday, February 15, 2010

Weekly Weigh In

Ok sooooo, I decided to change my weekly weigh in from Wednesday to Monday. Just figured the beginning of the week is easier. So, todays result is -3 lbs. It's obviously nothing close to the 19 lbs from the previous week, but I'll take it! So total weight loss to date is 22 lbs. In 13 days. Not too bad :)

Thursday, February 11, 2010

1 Week Checkup

So a whole entire week has already passed and time for my 1 week follow up. Total weight loss for week 1 is 19 lbs! Seriously, I can't remember the last time I lost 19 pounds! It really does not seem real. I am now eating mushy foods, and the first egg I had was the best egg I ever had! I seem to be tolerating everything pretty good so far, let's hope it stays that way! I need to stop weighing myself daily, or I will lose my mind lol. I think Wednesdays will be my official weigh in day, so I will post the weekly weigh ins.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

6 Days Post Op

And feeling REALLY good today! The Qpump came out today, and I am much more comfortable today than I have been. Since I have not been out anywhere, and I needed to do some walking, the hubby and I were off to Costco. We walked around the entire store, which can only mean one thing: good for walking, bad for shopping! We bought a Keurig Coffee Maker, and tons of household stuff. We went to the grocery store after, and I think I may have pushed a little too much, I was a little sore and tired, but after resting a little I feel good! Just one more day of a full liquid diet, and I can start mushy foods-eggs,cottage cheese, string cheese, whitefish...don't get me wrong, I really thought the liquid diet would be much worse, but it's really not bad, I just want TEXTURE!!! Well, that's all to report today, going back to watching the Superbowl!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

So Why Did I Do It?

First of all, let me say a couple of things about weight loss surgery.
1) Weight loss surgery, for anyone, is a deeply personal decision. Many people don't want to share that fact with anyone. If you come across someone you know has had it and they don't want to discuss it, respect them, don't pressure them.
2) Weight loss surgery is NOT FOR EVERYONE! Just because you are overweight does not mean you should have weight loss surgery. There are so many things to consider before you make the decision. Some of these reasons will be discussed here and there in this blog. By the way, this is my opinion, not from a doctor. I am not a doctor, nor do I play one on tv. I am just an opinionated girl that recently had surgery.
3) Weight loss surgery is NOT the "easy way out". If you are someone that is considering surgery and have either talked to some people or looked it up online somewhere, I guarantee you have found at least one opinion that says that. I have a 7 inch incision on my abdomen, had my internal plumbing rearranged, and will have to follow strict eating guidelines for the rest of my life. And after all that, there is still a chance I could gain my weight back. Now you tell me what is easy about that.

OK, now that I got that off my chest, back to the subject. I have always been the chubby-fat-thin-chubby-fat-thin-fat-thinner-really fat-morbidly obese (you get the picture?)girl. I was always active, played sports growing up, but also always loved food. Always. And never felt full. Bad combination. I have always been up and down. At 16 I lost almost 60 pounds and was very thin. Healthy thin, not eating disorder thin. My weight loss also resulted in gallstones, and at 17 had to have my gallbladder removed. I rapidly started gaining weight from the second I left the hospital. So quickly in fact, the clothes I wore when I went into the hospital I was never able to wear again. That was the summer before my senior year in high school. I was a size 6/8. When I started school I was a 10/12. By the time I graduated I was an 18/20. Although I never lost quite that much, I have always been up and down. I also mostly refer to sizes, not weight, because that's all I can remember. So from my late teens until now, I have gone from a 14 (once or twice) to a 26/28, which is my current size. I have tried every diet you can think of, with not much success, obviously. I look at pictures now from a few years ago that I hated because I looked so fat, now I would give anything to look like that. I look at pictures of my now and I dont recognize myself. My body is just round, and my face is all bloated. For my wedding I went and had a dress made, not because I couldn't fit in to any dresses, because I could not bear to even attempt it. My knees hurt and my feet hurt. In July I was told I was diabetic,and my cholesterol was high. In 2004 I was diagnosed with PCOS. I flew to Hawaii with my husband and needed a seat belt extender. When I go out to eat, I look to see what types of seating is available. I can no longer wear shoes with high heels. How many more reasons should I give? But out of all these reasons, there is only one. I wanted to be healthy. I married someone I love and wanted to be with for a very long time, and at the rate I was going, I was not going to be. I want to have a family, and my health was not going to let me. This is why I did it.

5 Days Post Op

And I feel pretty good! I'm not going out dancing or anything, but I don't feel awful! Every day I feel a little bit better. Let me recap the last 4 days:

Day 1-Surgery Day

I reported to the hospital at 615am. Checked in, dressed in my johnnie (sp?), and waited for anesthesia. I remember being put under, and just as I started feeling drowsy, I realized I wasn't drowsy, but being woken up to the sounds of "you're all done, you did great!" I was in recovery for a couple hours, and then moved to my room where my husband was waiting for me. I was a little groggy, and had a bit of a sore throat from the tube, but it was not as bad as I thought. I did have a catheter, which I never had before, but could hardly feel it. I also had a pain pump, which I hardly used, and a "Q Pump". It's this little ball of medicine you carry around in a little bag and is attached by 2 catheters in your abdomen that automatically showers your internal wound with medicine. I don't have any major pain, so I guess it works! I did however feel when I tried to adjust myself in bed-bad idea! That hurt, and needed some help to do so. I was glad to have some family and friends visit me, and snacked on some ice chips during the day. As it was a hospital stay, there was not a lot of sleep!

Day 2-Let's Go Walking!

There is no fooling around here! After a breakfast of some lemon sorbet and some vanilla shake, it was time to get moving. I went for a couple of long walks down the hallways, and was told I did much better walking than most people! It's a little tough getting up by myself, but walking was no problem, in fact I actually felt much better after each walk. Broth and sorbet for lunch and broth and sugar free pudding for dinner. By the way, just because both were served does not mean that both were eaten lol. It's amazing-a few spoonfuls of broth, and I am full, a couple spoonfuls of sorbet or pudding, and I am full, it's craziness!

Day 3-Time To Go!

Yup, day 3 (as long as there are no complications) you are out of there! The Doctor came by around 11am and said I was good to go, and that I could leave as long as I went for another walk with stairs. Around 3:00 I arrived home, and it was kind of like "what do I do know?". I rested, drank my fluids and protein, and rested some more. Again, not a lot of rest in the hospital. My mom came over, while my husband went to pick up my prescriptions.
Here is what I got:
Percoset, for pain (I take 1-2 a day, don't really need more than that)
Colace, stool softener (percs make you constipated)
Prilosec, for heartburn and reflux
a pill for nausea, if needed (I have not been)
Lovinox-blood thinner shot 1x daily for 20 days. My mother comes over every day to give me the shot.

Day 4-Adjusting

Slept on the couch last night. It's still a little too difficult to get in and out of my bed, besides I am supposed to be slightly elevated, so the couch it is. I was able to get up on my own without my husbands assistance, which was good since I did not have to wake him up for my middle of the night bathroom trips. Oh yea, I pee constantly! I am a little uncomfortable because I am gassy, and am constipated (I know it's TMI, but I said I would be honest about this!). Today was great because I got to SHOWER today! No sponge bath, a real shower. Yes, hubby had to help me, but it was so nice to be in my shower, with my shampoo, and bath gel, and facial cleanser. And my own clothes! I could not wait to get into my own clothes! Now that I was all showered and clean, let me share my gastric bypass eating guidelines:

Week 1
Goals: Fluids 64oz/day
Protein 40-65 grams/day
chewable multivitamin 2x daily

protein supplements: sugar free carnation instant breakfast, 1% milk, thin cream soups, light smooth yogurt, greek yogurt, sf pudding/custard

fluids: water, sf gelatin, broth, sf popsicles, crystal light, sf hot chocolate, diet Snapple, decaf coffee or tea NO CARBONATION

4oz every hour, alternating protein and fluid

It's really not so bad. At least there is some variety. If you told me it was all breakfast shakes, then we would have a problem! But, I love soup and yogurt, and sf pudding and jello, and I always drank Crystal Light anyways, so I am doing pretty good!

Day 5-Sip Sip Sip!

The Gastric Bypass mantra! Basically if you are not sipping your protein, you are sipping fluid! I am pretty happy that I have had most of my fluid and all my protein intake! It's not easy, but I'm doing it! Still constipated, still peeing constantly. First week is almost up, which means....soft foods! I can't wait!!

Did I Really Just Have Gastric Bypass Surgery?

Yes I did. On February 2, I changed my life forever. For the better, but it is something that will stay with me for the rest of my life. I have decided to blog about the surgery, the process I went through, and how I will be changing post-op. My hope is that someone will read this that is thinking about having the surgery, and that this helps them make a decision, either for or against.
Couple of things to know about this blog. I will be very open and honest. More open and honest than I am with most people. Except for my best friend, who I tell pretty much everything. I am opinionated, sometimes too opinionated, and if I say something that offends you, then I apologize in advance that I have offended you, but not for my opinion. So, if weight loss surgery has been on your mind but you're just not sure, want to hear some info and opinions from a real person and not a pamphlet, then read on, follow me, comment, or send questions.